Guest blog post: I received another letter from my husband Brett which I wanted to share again in my blog. The first letter I shared was written at the very beginning of this crazy journey and now this letter gives a more in depth look at how this separation has been affecting Brett for almost three months now. For instance, on top of everything Brett is already handling on his own, he also has to prepare for the twins arrival and get the entire nursery set up. Thankfully, friends and family have helped out but this is just one more example of something that the two of us should be working on together, but can't. I keep telling people that even though my life has changed dramatically since I was put in this hospital bed, my husband's life has been equally changed in a unique way. Dear Sweety Cat,
I can't believe it's spring-ahead Sunday already — week 31! It feels like it was just last Sunday. Sadly, I know for you, this is not the case. For me, on the other side of our separated lives, time seems like a blur because I am running so fast. I try to sneak in selfish moments of relaxation whenever I can, as that is all I am craving these days. Sometimes all I want to do is lie in bed for days like you, and sleep, and all you want to do is lead my life, running around, outside of your Rapunzel tower. I mean, that's sort of how it is for you. "The Maiden in the Tower," but with constant beeping sounds, stale recycled air, and hearing delivering mothers screaming because they don’t want an epidural. What a weird life.
We're now 81 days into this crazy chapter of life living apart. I have driven over 2,500 miles to visit you, slept in your room 32 nights, and we’re practically family with the nursing staff since they know us so well. You are “sitting on your eggs” while they develop, and I am running around — working in my new office in Santa Monica, taking care of the four cats in Agoura Hills, as well as all the other nonsense that keeps our lives going. I ran out of the house so quickly the other day, I completely forgot to bring with me my Burke Williams gift card that you got me for Valentine's Day. I had to postpone Friday's much-needed spa appointment until next Friday. Oh well.
So what is it like in my shoes? For one thing, it’s not nearly as painful and isolating as what you are going through, but probably equally as interesting. I tell the story of why you are living in a hospital every time I meet someone new, or when someone asks how you are, or what's going on in my life. Everyone's reaction is the same: surprised, empathetic, and bewildered all at once. "Oh wow, a girl and a boy — you’re so lucky, an instant family!" It's really an amazing reaction. I wish you were present to hear everyone's excitement for us. It's like when you tell someone you got into a really great university, and they are so excited for you. It’s a very nice feeling.
Last night at the party I went to, I brought you with me on FaceTime and I had a virtual date. That was unique. You sort of got to be there, and for about 30 minutes I felt complete again with my other half — albeit electronically. If this is how technology is today, what will it be like when the Ziggies are our age?
I've been meaning to write this entry for over a month now. This has been the most challenging, most exciting, most adventurous, and most different part of my life. No doubt. I have a new circle of business colleagues, I bike to work, I visit you everyday in your tower, and I am truly blessed to have two healthy babies about to enter our lives in a matter of weeks! My parents are incredibly supportive and present in our journey and provide you with the nurturing love and support you need to get through this time.
I can’t believe we’re nearing the end. It’s going to happen soon. I can’t wait for you and the babies to come home. Our kitties miss you so much! I miss you even more. This has been arduous at times, but I know it will be so worth it in the end. I know we have been incredibly strong throughout all this, and I know we will be incredible parents. We’re doing it, we’re doing it well, and we are unstoppable. I love you so much! Keep being so amazing and strong! You are an inspiration to so many people, including me. You motivate me to work so hard. This is the beginning of a beautiful chapter.
*The song "I Know It's Today" is from the 2008 Broadway musical Shrek the Musicalwhich is based on the popular animated film from 2001. In the song, Princess Fiona longs for a prince to come find her but the years keep rolling by with no luck and she gets very tired of waiting. As Brett mentions in his letter, I am very much like "The Maiden in the Tower" waiting to be set free. But unlike Fiona, I have my prince and even though I have endured many days of waiting to go back to our life together, I know the finish line is near. The babies keep getting bigger and my due date is fast approaching. Knowing that I have already endured almost 12 weeks here on bed rest, what's another 6? It will be so amazing when I can actually say for certain " I know it's today" and meet my babies for the first time.